Rebirth is needed

As I was combing through the words, wisdoms and teachings this short line enlightened me: Rebirth is needed.

 

How true.

Often forgotten.

 

And the most unusual part? You need to die first, voluntarily.

 

After the foggy days, you know, when the painkillers shred off, everything is sharper yet pale. Thinking back, there were days with daydream-fevers, that state, when everything has its place while you are in and makes completely no sense when you are looking back at it.

Which one is real?

When everything works despite struggles or when nothing seems to be working, feels cold, a bit cruel as you are unwanted, people are uninterested in you, yet, it is said that is reality, that is life.

And the sad part: you feel it is true somewhere.

And you are fighting against yourself, hiding this realization, escaping into mind palaces.

But each escaping is a failure.

You always need to be able to transform any unpleasant circumstances into a more ideal one, creating Heaven with your thoughts, words and actions.

It doesn’t feel right and it is completely nonsense.

Still, the only way to create a better world if you make it. Nobody else will make it for you or to the people you care, love.

 

I have always been lack of bright sense when it came to take care of myself.

At all.

Completely.

 

And now, it’s like left out words waiting after anything I write or think, a predetermined ending.

So, my free will is among the boundaries I’d involuntarily made?

 

God couldn’t have given me my destiny for sure, if I weren’t anywhere near to become a co-creator in life!

 

There is this significant difference with ageing: awareness can be pre-occupied with mindless things and the numbness; the greatest fear of all: loosing me, myself and I. For sure, I am my own flesh, but I am more. Even if science lacks the equipments to measure, I do have a soul, I do have love in me.

 

I do have God in me.

 

At least, there is a place where He had temporary shelter to dwell, at least in a tiny part.

 

And I know, fatal sicknesses are not by Him, but it is scary and hard.

What if?

The what ifs are the scariest and the hardest.

 

I do lead a good life, I am a good person. Yet, I have so many mistakes, I have accidentally wronged others and I had to realize, somewhere I am also vain.

What if my failures…

 

Just get back to life, just get back to help others, especially if they don’t know it, and gain back love to do more.

The foggy days are over.

The rest will be done, either way.

 

 

Joshua Dragon

 

(from my upcoming book: Good is Still Within)

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Rebirth – Again

God has granted me the chance to be reborn – again.

 

This wasn’t the first time.

The miracle is still flowing through my cells. Minute by minute I can acknowledge the strength.

 

When you feel life is coming back to you and you have this sense of strange feeling of guilt that you haven’t earned it. And you feel it is kind of right.

I can type again. Probably, I can write again.

I could cook yesterday.

I could carry the bags from shop the day before yesterday.

I was able to breath a few days ago.

 

It is still strange, an unusual mystery, how easily it can be forgotten and looked obvious that even lifting an arm was a distant desire not known for sure ever to be fulfilled – and now it is normal.

How things can loose their meaningfulness so easily in our life?

Like they had no value at all for us.

Vanity is an ever-existing condition it seems.

Indeed, as there is progress, we deem to forget priorities which were reset in a way we felt were the truth.

Now, a race started again: which minuscules could tramp over and misguide my presence, derail my consciousness to plastic reality?

Can I be the king of the fake world? Can I be in that competition, with even greater strength? It feels like that, every single moment which I spend with muting my inner voice and reasoning myself: surfing, watching, listening, not-praying and self-treating are worthier ways.

I know, God hasn’t saved me for this. It looks, a rebirth doesn’t make me different from what I used to be, not in an instant, not without growth.

Though, healing is also a process.

Maybe I also should be more accepting with myself. I should let myself to heal inside, heal from the world, from the life I’ve lived.

 

 

JD

 

(from my new book: God is Still Within)

Vigilance

Vigilance, and like mental attitudes of heedfulness, wakefulness,and concentration, are necessary for progress on the spiritual path.

Heedfulness is necessary because life is a continuous stream: every moment is an occasion to think, will, and act either within the discipline of the spiritual path or to violate its teachings. Despite one’s initial burst of enthusiasm for the Way, it is all too easy to slip back into fallen and worldly habits. Only continued vigilance can preserve our life.

(from the book: World’s Scriptures II)

The lessons to be learned from the life of Jesus Christ

Now there remains the course of tribulations to which we who are called upon by Heaven must adhere. You must remember that it is none other than the path of Jesus, who walked it throughout the thirty years of his life. When you examine the thirty-year life course of Jesus, he lived thirty years of private life, three years of public life and brought an end to his ordeals during the three-day period in the tomb.

There is no question that we ourselves must follow the path of crucifixion and resurrection. Yet the important thing is that the humanity of the whole world must all walk the same path.

After his death on the cross, Jesus received the grace of resurrection, but this did not take place in the simple and easy manner you might envision. It did not happen in one day or in several hours. You must understand that it was achieved when the heart of God, who had traveled through the long 4,000-year history became one with the heart of Jesus. On that foundation, Jesus walked thirty years of a suffering path and won the victory We are living a life of faith and are reading the Bible, yet we must never interpret the Bible according to our own whims. It is common for believers to take the view that the way of the crucifixion took place solely on the cross, but this is not true. You must understand that the way was materialized through his life of tremendous suffering that others do not know about. For thirty odd years, he could not eat or dress adequately. Moreover, you must also realize that Jesus is the only begotten son of God who fully equipped himself with the remaining conditions to be qualified as a member of the elite troop of God.

Now we must analyze the lessons that the life of Jesus provides and come up with a new interpretation of matters that range from having faith in Jesus to his course of ordeals. You must also pass through the course of trials. While Jesus was passing through the course of trials and ordeals, there must have been many fights. We must learn from the example of Jesus who fought, not for ten or twenty years, but for thirty years and braved even death. What you must understand now is that you yourselves must take charge of the remaining path of suffering and path of death, to guard the cross and uphold the way of the crucifixion.

After Jesus passed away the responsibility to guard the castle of crucifixion that Jesus had constructed on earth and to make the first step in the fierce fight lay with the apostles. You must understand that now the responsibility to protect the castle of crucifixion lies on the shoulders of the apostles of the last days. The time has come when the final determination of victory and defeat must be made in the last fierce battle. The crucial question is whether you have become the elite troop that can stay on the course, and whether you can perform the second miracle of resurrection to be reborn, as Jesus was resurrected.

Jesus has continued to engage himself in the fight, even after going to the spirit world. He is fighting against Satan on behalf of the countless good believers. The Holy Spirit is the one who, copying the example of Jesus, has unfolded the battle on earth. It is our responsibility to receive the help of the Holy Spirit and fight the actual battle. In other words, it is we who must become Heaven’s elite corps who can take over the burden of the conflict.

Let Us Become the Elite Troop of God
Reverend Sun Myung Moon
April 8, 1956

Complete Pieces of Life

I came to help the people
Turning back to You
Done the extra mile
Still a lot to do

Scattered pieces of life
Torture every day
Ignorants and blind
Imitating love

Countless times I’ve been saved
Your Grace is my shelter
I have been forgiven
For what I cannot speak

Still yet to comprehend
How You could be
Understanding and hugging
Against everything

I am here to fly
Back to You
I am here to live
Live again by You

I am here to help
What I have just begun to understand
It is You
Who has always been there

Complete pieces of life
Make me whole
Again the first time
I will not fall back,
Not again

Welcome to my life
You’ve been always here
And now I recognize You
At last

Let me embrace the people of the world
All the Nature, Creation
With Your love

Persevering love, enduring despite everything
All the odds seem gone
Abundance, Heaven is going to come

Let me revive,
Resurrect in You

Let me believe,
What have always been true

Hold my hand
We are both in need

Feel my heart

You are at home

In me

 

Joshua Dragon

 

(from the book: Words of Light)

Where are You, God

Where are You, God

Where have You been

I’m not blaming

Merely hurting

Inside, I thought I felt your pain

It seems to be selfish now

 
Where are You, God

Where have You been

I became blind

In the edge of life

Ignorant faith

And I sealed us away

 
Where are You, God

Where have You been

I excluded You again and again

Yet, when I asked You came

Saved lives of beloved ones

And I pledged, wouldn’t be in vain

 
Where are You, God

Where have You been

I took time, too long

Find a place in me

You had to pure me

In pain

 
Where are You, God

Where have You been

I learnt You’ve never left

And never will

It is on my responsibility

You can help me to live again

 
Where are You, God

Where have You been

I know by now

In me

Working for more space

The world can be saved

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Let Us Become People Who Can Live with God’s Love

As I Can See

Do you know a place where God is nearest to you? That is the place of repentance. However, as you understand God more, you don’t need to say to Him, “Please forgive me because I committed such and such sins.” Once you repent the fact that you did not know God’s Heart looking over you, everything will be forgiven.

If there is a greater sinner than a prodigal son who wastes all the money of his parents, this is a son who hurts and wounds his parents’ loving hearts. There is no greater sin. If this son cries out while saying, “How can my sin that injured my father’s heart be forgiven?”, then the father will forgive him by saying, “Oh, my son and Oh, my son.” If the fallen parents can do this, God will definitely forgive you.

In general people go to their church and pray, “Please forgive…

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Even if you face lonely periods in your life

As I Can See

Even if you experience lonely time periods when you feel you have no power within, you should not get discouraged. You should know through such periods you could overcome the valleys of your life. A border in the valley is the midpoint of the valley. The larger the valley, the wider is the bottom of the valley. You will experience a lonely time when you alone pass through the expanse of the bottom of the large valley. When you are there, neither God nor Satan can interfere with you. You must pass through it all by yourself. Like a boat has to navigate through sunken rocks in dark night, you must face such a dangerous time. You want to gut it out, but you have no power left in you. Then you will be overcome with the feeling that God has forsaken you. You are so bewildered that you cannot…

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