epitaph

haven’t I given
everything to you
haven’t I changed
completely for you

haven’t I dreamt of
a better future with you
haven’t I fought for
a brighter tomorrow

haven’t I believed
in the unity of us
haven’t I acted
upon each promises

haven’t I felt
your touch as eternity
haven’t I been
reborn by it

those times
are gone now
need to evolve
this is goodbye

 

Joshua Dragon

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Powerlessness

what have I done
if I have done
what have I missed
if I have missed

I wasn’t here
where I should have been
I haven’t seen
what should I have seen

now
suffering comes

they are just innocent
to be harmed this way
what have I done
what I should have seen?

just missed the life
their life
who we miss now and tomorrow

accusing myself
can’t see the pain
doubts in everything
and prayers to God
to forgive what I have
and haven’t done

have no words
even my existence is so heavy
how could I endure it
when others suffer

I feel I can’t bear the pain that others suffer
I wish time to turn back
I wish to change the Rules
I wish myself to suffer and ache instead of them
I wish I was True Father to bear this
I wish I was a True Man to bear it
I wish to resemble Him
who suffers the most because of me
because of me
because of me

and still
He lifts me up
embraces
forgives
and forgets
and Loves

turning my powerlessness into capable capacity
to love them again
the world
and the humanity
including…
…me

 

JD

Once I Was Able to Love

once
everything was lost
I’ve offered everything
now
the long forgotten
might return

was
I able to love
more than myself
seems
an obvious answer
am I honest

who
is sending the signs
I can pretend but I’m
blind
no-one knew it
just my heart

an inner stone
seemed to be alive
me
being in a sea
are you my destination
still

 

Joshua Dragon

I should give the comfort

I should give the comfort
comfort for the world
even if I struggle
even when it hurts

 

being lost in life
torn apart in sea
broken pieces flooding
scrambling help signal

 

who can hear the agony
we all share here on Earth
can we be real siblings
or just being lost as always

 

God is still waiting
when we stand united
having the bonds
everlasting unbroken

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Discovering What Has Been Lost

Discovering

after such a long time

which can be a day

or more by thousand times

 

What has been lost

the Truth inside me

covered in shock

rage and hatred

 

New earthquake in my heart

needed to happen

dirt had piled up

time has come to shovel

 

I was dwelling in a frozen fragment of time

trying not to feel

although my eyes were open wide

I was hiding behind a veil

 

Just not to feel as much

not to be hurt again

not to hurt others

just be me in peace

 

Heaven called me early in my life

and I’ve made my promises

in exchange for my

and my children’s life

 

I had become broken

it’s hard to admit it

for someone

who always wants to fix it

 

Though, I had never stopped

I wasn’t full

I had become a broken wheel

hard to move

 

Only for others

not to care for myself

that was the only way

I was able to accept

 

Now I have to love

myself again

this way to be healed

and be able to heal

 

Discovering

what has been lost

reinventing

to reach even more

 

 

-Joshua Dragon-

 

Don’t worry, my child

As I Can See

Don’t worry, my child
don’t you worry
I’m standing right next to you
I’m with you

You may think the world is over
you might feel this way
but even if it is so
I’ll be with you

The broken sadness in you
will pass away
complete happiness will rise
with the morrow

Loneliness and Isolation
the two loyal friends
Abundant Grace
will better suit to you

Can you accept, my child
the love I’m giving you
Can I give you more
to heal you by tomorrow

I’m worried my child,
I’m worried for you
I’d like to find a way
a better way to and for you

But you shan’t worry
if you open up
just a little bit more
let me embrace you

You may think I’m too old
and you are independent
to be so close friends
partners for life

I’m here any case
trying to catch…

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Lost Love

Who is gonna win
We’ve been in this fight
So long I can’t remember
Just for the sleepless nights

We’ve been avoiding
The facts and everything
Trying like always
Accomplishing nothing

We could have waited
But I can see it now
Anything just happened
Showed the truth about us

In this realm
There is only lost love

 

Joshua Dragon

Where is the direction

Where is the direction
I feel I’m lost
What is the way
I’ve forgotten

I was supposed to win
Every battle
Now I’m drifting
Through the time

Sometimes I wish
I knew
How to undo all
I’ve misdone

It’s not like that
I’m crying
I’m too stubborn
To admit

Where is my game
Playing
To know is all
I’ve ever wanted

I wonder if the flowers
Will dry out again

Joshua Dragon

Magic child

I was standing alone
in the doorway of hope
we’d been fighting so hard
to come see it all along

 

The beautiful times
of all the preparation
the wonderful magic
during the expectation

 

You made me happy and trusting
in the whole new future
my life was reconstructed
and I became so sure

 

That the only thing can happen
is joyous and amazing
that everything will turn
into forever winning

 

I was right, I know I was right
the best moments of being alive

 

All of a sudden the time became frozen
I still remember the heartbeats were broken
I started to lose everything in front of my eyes
Just like in a movie, I’m seeing everything in daylight

 

The tiles were reflecting the fading sunshine
the abandoned corridor echoed my (shivering) cry
as I was trying to pray and asking our God
to take me instead and give you the life

 

The longest prayer I had at a fragmented hour
I was unable to talk but my screams were loud
and there wasn’t any answer
just a reel of my past

 

Before you came to alive
to see this world
before you came to bless
and change this world
I pledged to our Father
who lives in the skies
trading my old self
for giving you new life

 

God has saved you
you are a miracle child
there wasn’t any chance
yet you’re here, alive

 

Everyday I leave you
to help this world
I’m doing ’cause I’ve promised
always to do better

 

I’ll never want to have
a relaxing night
until Heaven on Earth
is not realized

 

God didn’t take my life
to trade it for yours
I offered my wrongs
and I became better for good

 

It is still hard to breathe
when I recall those moments
My heart is aching
I’m paralysed by the what ifs

 

I love you my son
And I would do it again
to have you be born
and let you be

 

You are a magic child
The best ever could happen
This world is more complete
and Blessed by your presence

 

Before you came to alive
to see this world
before you came to bless
and change this world
I pledged to our Father
who lives in the skies
trading my old self
for giving you the life

 

 

Joshua Dragon