I’ve felt guilt to feel happy for so long that it’s hard to be and stay happy anymore

Have you ever felt guilt because you had some glimpses of happiness and joy for a time being?

I have.

Actually, I have been trying to push the feeling away because of the despairing echoes of loneliness for so long I can’t even remember how to stay truly happy and joyful for good.

How can I regain control over my happiness?

Am I even worthy to be happy?

Unexpectedly, I found myself imbalanced no matter how much I’d thought I knew how to balance things out. I’m an emotional guy, God made me like this and I never give in to the pit of darkness. Well, not for long. Or at least I know how to ask for help to get out… or I’d thought that’s how I was around in life… it turns out I wasn’t…

So, does that mean I’ve become broken?

Yes.

Took time not to hide it from myself. Took long enough.

What is the takeaway?

Maybe there is none.

Maybe that’s I’m still a human, an immature one, on the way of growth.

But it’s still freaking lonely to keep embracing this distance and not daring to enjoy the warmth of joy, peace and happiness.

I must try, I must keep trying on to shed the shellfragments of loneliness and brokenness, fear of abandonment and the constant present of the past. All the guilt of it.

It’s not on me, it’s not on anyone.

I’m worthy, I was given to give, I’m blessed to bless.

I have shine in me.

I have shine in me.

 

 

Joshua Dragon

When the world falls onto your shoulders

When the world falls onto your shoulders

And there is nobody to help

You feel conflicted and alone

Neglected, abused

 

You would grasp some air to inhale

But just the scent of failures

Fills your lungs and mind

No escape day or night

 

There is no-one else to trust

You’ve betrayed yourself, too

More than enough

Now you really need a hug

 

Just look around

What you can see

Is not real

Just pretended fear

 

Since He is here

To support you

He is here

To elevate you

 

God is your friend in need

God is your parent in need

God answers you

When you’re in need

 

All the pains and sorrow

Just trials to make you whole

To get rid of the past’s

Haunting demons

 

It’s you who matters

And your actions speak

You decide Heaven or Hell

Where you want to live

 

 

Joshua Dragon

 

SMM Quotes – 246

“To become a friend and someone who is loved, one has to understand the other person’s sorrow and pain and comfort them. Only then can one become the other person’s friend. If you connect to someone’s heart and build a relationship of love, then you can move that person as you wish, and you will also do as he wants.” – Reverend Sun Myung Moon

You are to find love…

You are amazing
You are gifted
You are special
You are unique

You are the child of God
You are a star in the sky
You are the Sun in the dark
You are an island in the ocean

Do not be afraid of the changes
Do not be discouraged when you are hurt
Do not ever feel lonely
Do not ever let resentment settle in your heart

Because you are worthy
Because you are enough
Because you are to be loved
Because you are to find love

 
Joshua Dragon

SMM Quotes – 244

“Unless words and action are one, they result in evil. If we harmonize on all sides we are balanced. If we don’t harmonize, we lose our spiritual balance and it is almost impossible for us to right ourselves. The same is true of our faith – if we lean to one side we lose harmony and harmony cannot easily be recovered, even with hundreds of thousands of times the effort. So to keep from turning aside from our path, you must be right and true in your words and actions – behavior and feelings to draw the boundary between gain and loss in your religious life. Even one hundredth of second will make or break your fate.” – Reverend Sun Myung Moon

21 Teachings on Happiness ​

  1. We all desire to be happy but we are constantly failing to recognize we are immature to achieve it.
  2. Longing for happiness is like starving. However, as easy it is to have poor food choices as easy it is to burn our soul.
  3. Nobody deserves to be unhappy but this is what we all know since we were born into this. The One who came to teach was killed because we were unable to think of actually leaving our comfort zone.
  4. How many times have we crucified the Messiah out of ignorance? Those who say they have never done it don’t know what they are talking about.
  5. Preaching about happiness is teaching about something that no one has ever had the chance to fully understand. Even God cannot be completely happy up until one person remains in the realm of ignorance and pain.
  6. There is no such a thing as individual joy. God would have no idea what you are talking about if you asked him about it.
  7. There is the question of sin. But our Heavenly Parent has never understood the differences out of the original realm of heart. For Him, everything else is relative and temporary – no matter how we see this.
  8. Living on Earth and trying to succeed only here is like watching a cooking show. You’ll never get the taste of the real food and you’ll never have the chance to discover your own unique ways to co-create if you just accept what others do for themselves in their lives.
  9. People always want to be happy but they don’t know they can’t. Unless they start to think to be happy together with others, based on the patterns God created in the Nature, they will always end up wanting to be happy but never truly be.
  10. True joy and happiness is not mesmerizing, it is not like a drug, it is nothing like a purple mist: it’s our natural state of being we have never experienced.
  11. To be happy you need to experience who you really are meant to be and what it actually means in the everyday life: you are meant to be the child of God.
  12. To be happy you need to grow.
  13. Happiness is an active emotion. It requires ceaseless efforts to live for the sake of others for a greater purpose.
  14. If you can not be happy, God can not be happy either.
  15. God’s only joy during the Creation was to think of you being happy once and living together in evolving harmony.
  16. You can’t give happiness and you can’t make others happy either. You can create an action to what others can respond so a constant flow of give and take actions will generate energy for existence and growing – that what we can call happiness and joy in its true sense.
  17. If you want to be happy for your own sake, you’ll never be able to do it.
  18. Thinking of others, how to help them, how to support them even beyond your everyday reach is the starting point of true happiness.
  19. Happiness is a result of actions. It starts with care, compassion, humbleness and dedication.
  20. On the road towards absolute happiness there is no ‘me’.
  21. Since God, our Heavenly Parent has created everything out of love, you will be happy for eternity. It’s up to you and your thoughts and actions when this will start.

by Joshua Dragon

Happiness doesn’t dwell in just one place but shines out to all people

Happiness doesn’t dwell in just one place but shines out to all people. Glory implies prosperity and happiness for everyone, like a light shining out on a new morning where all nature is in harmony and rejoicing together. When the birds on the trees and the animals have been shivering all night, how do they feel when they finally see the dawn breaking? Even though there was heavy snow, as soon as they see the morning light their joy is abundant. All of nature awakes from the darkness and rejoices over that shining light, celebrating the greatness of the morning.

 

New Morning of Glory
Reverend Sun Myung Moon
January 22, 1978

You are destined for greatness!

Welcome to 2017, in the year of your growing!

All the wonders are waiting for you this year, every day!

Still don’t know how to be constantly happy, maintain lasting joy, not to see the changes as signs of loss and not to feel being beaten by every single challenges in your life?
Good news is here for you: from now on, in each and every day you can be happier and more content than before!
 
Here are a few ideas how so:

Trust yourself
Your inner voice is a God-given gift, nurture it consciously!
 
Be conscious and self-aware
You might feel down and being challenged, but that’s OK, feelings are normal. Just don’t let them to take over your life and cloud your sight!
 
Have compassion
Towards your environment, closer and farther, known and unfamiliar people, and even to yourself. None of us is a robot, our soul is more important than any external achievement!

Live for the sake of others
Especially when you don’t get any feedbacks, or just negativity. Do you think God has ever had any better? Still, He hasn’t given up on you…
 
Love your life
Instead of focusing the flaws, with a selective attitude, pick the absolute values and keep them in mind, so, you will always have a safe haven throughout your day. It is always good to start with the harmony in the Nature…
 
And please, never forget, You are not alone.
Despite all the circumstances and internal feelings and bleeding, personal desires and commitments, works and excuses, don’t let yourself being isolated, the lack of unity is the death of the human soul. Be a living person rather than a living dead – connect, reach out with prayers, meditations or at least on-line.

Stay connected!
 
Blessings!
 

Joshua Dragon

Have You Noticed That You Are Amazing?

Here is the thing: everybody wants to be happy, live a joyful life, create and work for the greater good and be appreciated accordingly.
Nobody likes being prejudged based on anything, nobody likes being shut out, nobody likes being alone, nobody likes being misused.
Yet, we all have vast experiences about these and there are more to them.
How can we change it?

Here is the thing: we are all meant to excel in whatever we plan for others and the world around us. Living in a world full of communication devices we seem to be loosing in our efficiency regarding the ability of real meaning and understanding each other. It is like the Tower of Babylon – so many ways to miss the point.
However, and this is a great however: you can excel in any art, the inevitable tool to comprehend other nations, science, faith, people and I can assure you, yourself during the way.

You are a Winner,
Not a Quitter,
You are Awesome,
No matter what you say,
You are Amazing,
Nobody is, was or will be like you
You are Unique,
Not only Special,
But simply: Fantastic!

Be persevering and all your efforts will bring fruition for you and your beloved ones and the whole world will be a greater place.

 

Joshua Dragon

You’ve recreated me and made me whole

I thought, I’d lost you
But You’d found me
The swamp of my life
Emerged to a blooming meadow
Where You are the Creator
And I’m Your co-creator
Where we experience
Love and fun together
Where the highs and lows
Are equally shared

 
It was only a night
What I’d asked for
It was only a day
What I’d hoped for
Yet You gave me
A whole new life
With meaning and purpose
Love and care
Abundant joy
Truth and peacefulness
You’ve recreated me
And made me whole

 
You’ve recreated me
And made me whole

 

Thank you!

 

 

JD

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