Rebirth is needed

As I was combing through the words, wisdoms and teachings this short line enlightened me: Rebirth is needed.

 

How true.

Often forgotten.

 

And the most unusual part? You need to die first, voluntarily.

 

After the foggy days, you know, when the painkillers shred off, everything is sharper yet pale. Thinking back, there were days with daydream-fevers, that state, when everything has its place while you are in and makes completely no sense when you are looking back at it.

Which one is real?

When everything works despite struggles or when nothing seems to be working, feels cold, a bit cruel as you are unwanted, people are uninterested in you, yet, it is said that is reality, that is life.

And the sad part: you feel it is true somewhere.

And you are fighting against yourself, hiding this realization, escaping into mind palaces.

But each escaping is a failure.

You always need to be able to transform any unpleasant circumstances into a more ideal one, creating Heaven with your thoughts, words and actions.

It doesn’t feel right and it is completely nonsense.

Still, the only way to create a better world if you make it. Nobody else will make it for you or to the people you care, love.

 

I have always been lack of bright sense when it came to take care of myself.

At all.

Completely.

 

And now, it’s like left out words waiting after anything I write or think, a predetermined ending.

So, my free will is among the boundaries I’d involuntarily made?

 

God couldn’t have given me my destiny for sure, if I weren’t anywhere near to become a co-creator in life!

 

There is this significant difference with ageing: awareness can be pre-occupied with mindless things and the numbness; the greatest fear of all: loosing me, myself and I. For sure, I am my own flesh, but I am more. Even if science lacks the equipments to measure, I do have a soul, I do have love in me.

 

I do have God in me.

 

At least, there is a place where He had temporary shelter to dwell, at least in a tiny part.

 

And I know, fatal sicknesses are not by Him, but it is scary and hard.

What if?

The what ifs are the scariest and the hardest.

 

I do lead a good life, I am a good person. Yet, I have so many mistakes, I have accidentally wronged others and I had to realize, somewhere I am also vain.

What if my failures…

 

Just get back to life, just get back to help others, especially if they don’t know it, and gain back love to do more.

The foggy days are over.

The rest will be done, either way.

 

 

Joshua Dragon

 

(from my upcoming book: Good is Still Within)

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All the anger and resentments

As I Can See

Isn’t it strange, when you do your best to love the people closer to you and farther away, and choose to change yourself, surrender your own desires hoping it will bring a brighter day for the world around, suddenly you are trembled upon, torn apart by careless words and others’ selfish deeds, shaking all your beliefs and intentions?

It’s not righteous and you feel it.
It’s destructive, you know it in your bone-marrow.
It’s a poison and you feel you are suffocating.
It’s a trap and you can’t seem to find the end of the maze.

Though emotions should be guided by intellect, it is just the whole situation which makes you powerless. And you come to the point you don’t want to do this any more. You’ve tried your best, your utmost effort, risked everything just for others and the ideal – but the excruciating pain is too much…

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Blessing Thoughts – 3

Heavenly Parent never waits to give you the blessing of blessings, He has already approached you more than a couple of times. Each time He could inherit a little bit of His abundant love in a form of healing, inspiration, fortune, encouragement, wisdom…

He would like to give you everything what He has ever had and will ever have. There is nothing He wants to keep for Himself. Whenever you are ready to change and act in accordance with the Universe, He gives you more and more.

Let Him Bless you!

 

Blessings!

 

-JD-

 

All the anger and resentments

Isn’t it strange, when you do your best to love the people closer to you and farther away, and choose to change yourself, surrender your own desires hoping it will bring a brighter day for the world around, suddenly you are trembled upon, torn apart by careless words and others’ selfish deeds, shaking all your beliefs and intentions?

It’s not righteous and you feel it.
It’s destructive, you know it in your bone-marrow.
It’s a poison and you feel you are suffocating.
It’s a trap and you can’t seem to find the end of the maze.

Though emotions should be guided by intellect, it is just the whole situation which makes you powerless. And you come to the point you don’t want to do this any more. You’ve tried your best, your utmost effort, risked everything just for others and the ideal – but the excruciating pain is too much to bear, better to walk away and live without all this nonsense. After all, you are not the messiah…

This is the crossroad, where both sides, goodness and evil are watching you, not saying anything.
It is only up to you to recognize how Heavenly Parent has lived and how He acted throughout the human history, throughout your own life. It is also up to you to stay human of this world and era, embracing the ever changing values and ideas.

No one will judge you.
No one will tell you what to do.
No one will say where to go to.
No one will whisper you wisdoms.

If you have come so far, that means the answers are already in you.

And you can change all the angers and resentments into Blessings for others through sacrifice and care and compassion and love.
And you can also let yourself to be stuck in the mud of the broken hearts.

Everything is up to you.

If you have come so far, you already know the answers.

Everything is up to you.

 

-Joshua Dragon-

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