It was over before I realized

It was over

Before I realized

How much I miss

From love and the world

Without her

 

Then God visited me

In different forms

And tried to lead me

In different ways

 

As I was blind

Dead and mute

It took a long while

To see myself

As a son of His

 

Even now it is hard

To believe

That He loves me

Unconditionally

 

I can be happy

By myself I know

It won’t be perfect

But I am not alone

 

Heavenly Parent

Is watching over me

 

 

Joshua Dragon

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Can God Really Heal Us?

Common belief

God will save and heal

Us in time of needs

Yet nobody knows

Why He would do that

When we are not there

Where we should be

This time or ever

We have been blaming

Him and each other

For everything in disorder

Life

Health

Fortune

Lack of clarity

Ignorance is bliss

Imperfect hide and seek

Why would God heal us

We are not machines to be fixed

We are sons and daughers

Who need to grow

Mature and prosper

Embrace who is our Father

Whose characteristics we shall reflect

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Rebirth is needed

As I was combing through the words, wisdoms and teachings this short line enlightened me: Rebirth is needed.

 

How true.

Often forgotten.

 

And the most unusual part? You need to die first, voluntarily.

 

After the foggy days, you know, when the painkillers shred off, everything is sharper yet pale. Thinking back, there were days with daydream-fevers, that state, when everything has its place while you are in and makes completely no sense when you are looking back at it.

Which one is real?

When everything works despite struggles or when nothing seems to be working, feels cold, a bit cruel as you are unwanted, people are uninterested in you, yet, it is said that is reality, that is life.

And the sad part: you feel it is true somewhere.

And you are fighting against yourself, hiding this realization, escaping into mind palaces.

But each escaping is a failure.

You always need to be able to transform any unpleasant circumstances into a more ideal one, creating Heaven with your thoughts, words and actions.

It doesn’t feel right and it is completely nonsense.

Still, the only way to create a better world if you make it. Nobody else will make it for you or to the people you care, love.

 

I have always been lack of bright sense when it came to take care of myself.

At all.

Completely.

 

And now, it’s like left out words waiting after anything I write or think, a predetermined ending.

So, my free will is among the boundaries I’d involuntarily made?

 

God couldn’t have given me my destiny for sure, if I weren’t anywhere near to become a co-creator in life!

 

There is this significant difference with ageing: awareness can be pre-occupied with mindless things and the numbness; the greatest fear of all: loosing me, myself and I. For sure, I am my own flesh, but I am more. Even if science lacks the equipments to measure, I do have a soul, I do have love in me.

 

I do have God in me.

 

At least, there is a place where He had temporary shelter to dwell, at least in a tiny part.

 

And I know, fatal sicknesses are not by Him, but it is scary and hard.

What if?

The what ifs are the scariest and the hardest.

 

I do lead a good life, I am a good person. Yet, I have so many mistakes, I have accidentally wronged others and I had to realize, somewhere I am also vain.

What if my failures…

 

Just get back to life, just get back to help others, especially if they don’t know it, and gain back love to do more.

The foggy days are over.

The rest will be done, either way.

 

 

Joshua Dragon

 

(from my upcoming book: Good is Still Within)

Nothing is broken in you

nothing is broken in you
nothing has ever been
nothing is wrong with you
nothing has ever been

whenever you feel
incapable
inadequate
or just simply not enough

all the issues
accumulated
impossible
to overcome

it’s not your fault
it has never been
you are still worthy
you are still unique

the ability to love
in an unprecedented way
is only in you
is only in you

the compassion and care
even when you are down
is spark given from God
you are partly like Him

when you are down
release the anger
let go of pain
and resentment

you won’t be empty
light will shine
through the clouds
of dissolving past

new life will grow
in the burnt
and barren land
of your heart

nothing is broken in you
nothing is wrong
nothing is impossible
nothing is like was before

when you realize
how greatly appreciated and loved
by the whole Universe
and God

 

Joshua Dragon

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