Harder than hard (a farewell from my father)

it’s harder than hard
excruciating
there are no night and no days
nothing remains here

it’s harder than hard
excruciating
echoes of love
drained dreams remained here

all the broken promises
all the tainted memories
all the made-up vanities
all the fainted braveries

all the gaslighted abuses
all the heart burnt oh the bruises
all the forgotten embraces
all the life you took from me

I let you free
I set you free
now

I forgive
just like Jesus
fatherless
no-one’s child

You couldn’t know
the mess you made
unable
and cursed for life

I forgive
just like Jesus
abandoned
through the time

you’re somewhere else
I can’t see you
and it’s breaking
all my heart

it’s harder than hard
excruciating
there are no night and no days
nothing remains here

it’s harder than hard
excruciating
echoes of love
drained dreams remained here

echoes of love
echoes of love

 

 

Joshua Dragon

remember the good times

remember the good times

remember the holy ground

where we stood and stayed

danced and kissed

through the night

 

remember the good times

but

all the years are gone now

remember the good times

but you

never said why you left

remember the good times

how we dreamt and yet survived

and

how we broke everything

what was nice and so dear

now we know every pain

 

all the nights and all the days

I’m just a wanderer in a desert

what’s my fate and indemnity

nobody knows, nobody knows

all the nights and all the days

I’m just a wanderer in a desert

what’s my fate and indemnity

nobody knows me, nobody knows me

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Drifting

There is a black hole in me

Without singularity

Fragments of life

Say me goodbye

Unreliable memories

Drifting in space

Who could be

You

Wasted me

I can’t embrace

The dead

Any more

Where would you be

If I were still alive

For you

Where would you be

If I were still there

I cannot be

The scent of your garden

Is broken history

 
I’m lonely and lost

I have everything I don’t need

 

 

Joshua Dragon

(from the “Break-up Therapy”)

epitaph

haven’t I given
everything to you
haven’t I changed
completely for you

haven’t I dreamt of
a better future with you
haven’t I fought for
a brighter tomorrow

haven’t I believed
in the unity of us
haven’t I acted
upon each promises

haven’t I felt
your touch as eternity
haven’t I been
reborn by it

those times
are gone now
need to evolve
this is goodbye

 

Joshua Dragon

Do not let your hearts be troubled

“Do not let your hearts be troubled.
Trust in God still, and trust in me.
There are many rooms in my Father’s house;
if there were not, I should have told you.
I am going now to prepare a place for you,
and after I have gone and prepared you a place,
I shall return to take you with me;
so that where I am
you may be too.
You know the way to the place where I am going.”

Thomas said, “Lord, we do not know where you are going, so how can we
know the way?” Jesus said:

“I am the Way, the Truth and the Life.
No one can come to the Father except through me.
If you know me, you know my Father too.
From this moment you know him and have seen him.”

Philip said, “Lord, let us see the Father and then we shall be satisfied.”
“Have I been with you all this time, Philip,” said Jesus to him, “and you still do
not know me?

To have seen me is to have seen the Father,
so how can you say, ‘Let us see the Father?’
Do you not believe
that I am in the Father and the Father is in me?
The words I say to you I do not speak as from myself:
it is the Father, living in me, who is doing this work.
You must believe me when I say
that I am in the Father and the Father is in me;
believe it on the evidence of this work, if for no other reason.
I tell you most solemnly,
whoever believes in me
will perform the same works as I do myself,
he will perform even greater works,
because I am going to the Father.
Whatever you ask for in my name I will do,
so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.
If you ask for anything in my name,
I will do it.
If you love me you will keep my commandments.
I shall ask the Father,
and he will give you another Advocate
to be with you for ever,
that Spirit of truth
whom the world can never receive
since it neither sees nor knows him;
but you know him,
because he is with you, he is in you.
I will not leave you orphans;
I will come back to you.
In a short time the world will no longer see me;
but you will see me,
because I live and you will live.
On that day
you will understand that I am in my Father
and you in me and I in you.
Anybody who receives my commandments and keeps them
will be one who loves me;
and anybody who loves me will be loved by my Father,
and I shall love him and show myself to him.”

 

John 14:1-21

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