I am a pastor. Hurt. Lost. Still rejoicing in God.

2020 is for sharp vision, see, it’s 20/20. It all depends how you look at life and Nature.

For me, it’s being eternally grateful, trying to be resilient, keep tranquility amidst the storms, evolving, uplifting and encouraging others.

Basically, change the pain, turn it, convert it into creative, positive action, art. Create a chance, show a path for those behind the rainbow. All the neglected, broken, abandoned ones. The ones with shattered hearts.

Only one can make real, meaningful changes in one’s life.

No one else.

 

I’ve just turned to 44. How many years left? I need to live well this time ahead, make every second count on Earth.

God called me when I was 10, but He was with me all time before.

Not that I haven’t had my curvy roads.

Yet, He has helped me, shaped me into who I am and who I can still become.

 

Gratitude.

For the pain, for the brokenness, for the bonemarrow aching grief.

My True Father says, I should recreate Heaven not somewhere else, but turn Hell here into Heaven, that’s the true restoration, that’s what Heavenly Parent has been working on with us.

How right He is!

It’s hard to recall if there has been a single person who wouldn’t have been attracted to God’s light and truth through me and would have actually be interested in how I am doing.

I am OK with that, that’s the beauty of it, being completely ready to pass God’s word to the ones in need.

 

Being left by the wife of 20+ years, being cheated on, called on names and treated as nobody’s dog, shattering all the hope and light – that came unexpected.

I had to learn I can’t take away others’ own part of responsibility no matter how much I wish.

God hasn’t made us to be robots. That simple it is.

Yet, we are living quite often as ignorant, malfunctioning robots. Likeminded zombies.

I know, this is God’s love and trust that I can bear and overcome it.

Still, it took a long time to accept, I am a good person after all – Satan wants us to feel isolated and alone. God is in togetherness.

God is in togetherness.

 

The strongest prayer I ever had was when my son was dying.

Heavenly Father accepted my offering and I’ve never held anything back ever since then.

Poured out every ounce of energy every day, earnestly living for others.

Now, most of the times I sing in my prayers.

When the pain becomes overwhelming, words can’t be formed, my soul only can sing. I learned it from others who went through the unexplainable. Like surviving the genocide in Rwuanda. Still trusting in God, still fighting with unrighteously caused hurt. God helped me to learn this and I’m grateful for this, too.

I am grateful for so many things.

I am grateful for everything.

 

I have never wanted to accept we are all meant to be alone at the end – despite the world’s best efforts to convince us.

But I can’t see how it will turn out.

I feel trapped and in many aspects I am. That is also the trust God can give: a chance to grow by doing something unprecedent, unimaginable.

Wouldn’t call it faith, though.

It’s a fact. Knowledge. Truth in my core.

God has never been in the books. He has always been in the life of those who acted upon their conscience. The ones who accepted without any conditions. The pure hearted ones.

 

I’m still wearing my Blessing ring.

It’s the symbol of my promise to God about me not giving up.

Just it hurts miserably.

For sure, it’s beyond every logic – but it’s a path to follow Jesus, it’s a path to pave for others, to have their life easier. It’s for my children and my spiritual children, too.

Can I be abundantly happy evermore?

Not sure.

On the one hand, I am successful and accepted in almost every aspects in life – except the conjugal relationship.

It’s a contradiction: Heaven is formed in pairs.

So, can a pastor date?

Sure. The world is a big place, seen tons of things.

Can this pastor date?

Nope. He made a promise to God.

Does it hurt?

Yes.

Makes sense?

In a way absolutely no.

Still, it’s a rejoice in Heavenly Parent.

 

 

Be Blessed and Wise!

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Even if you were born behind the rainbow…

You are worthy and meant to be great

even if you were born behind the rainbow

you can make the most fantastic dreams come true

even if you were born behind the rainbow

 

You are eligible to be the utmost happy

even if you were born behind the rainbow

you can trust yourself and dare to love

even if you were behind the rainbow

 

You are here to win the game of life

even if you were born behind the rainbow

God is here to stay with you and protect

even if you were born behind the rainbow

 

 

Joshua Dragon

You are to find love…

You are amazing
You are gifted
You are special
You are unique

You are the child of God
You are a star in the sky
You are the Sun in the dark
You are an island in the ocean

Do not be afraid of the changes
Do not be discouraged when you are hurt
Do not ever feel lonely
Do not ever let resentment settle in your heart

Because you are worthy
Because you are enough
Because you are to be loved
Because you are to find love

 
Joshua Dragon

You Are Being Loved At This Very Moment

Just because it is dark and empty

Just because it feels lonely

Just because it seems your are trapped

Just because it feels it will never end

You are still worthy

You are still enough

You are still great

You are still magical

 

Just because you are a one of a kind,

unique child of God

 

Believe in yourself as much as He believes in You!

 

 

Joshua Dragon

You’ll never know why God chose you…

You’ll never know why God chose you

if you choose to stay numb

if you opt for vanities

and being recklessly selfish remains your way

 

You’ll never know why God chose you

if you choose to stay negative

if you opt for resentments

and being hateful remains part of your days

 

You’ll never know why God chose you

if you choose to sorry yourself

if you opt for shame

and being forgiving is not in your dreams

 

You’ll never know why God chose you

if you choose to be ignorant

if you opt for stereotyping people

and being resentful is in your core

 

You’ll never know why God chose you

if you choose to destroy the Nature

if you opt for hurting words

and not being arrogant is a hard way

 

But you’ll understand God

if you stay humble and nice

by opening your heart

and you’ll have nothing to hide

 

 

 

Joshua Dragon

What Crushes You

you should just go and do
because you already know
who can live inside of you

As I Can See

What crushes you
is not what you’ve left
and not what you’ve been missing in life
not even the dreams you feel can’t be achieved
but the times when you are helpless
and can’t save everyone
not even those who are the most beloved ones
to you

What crushes you
is you
feeling lonely
flooding through space
and wrinkles of time
not knowing what’s happening
without discovering
the truth

What crushes you
is living without God
having those moments
when you are alone
without the umbilical cord

then you should just go and do
because you already know
who can live inside of you

Joshua Dragon

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From Ashes We Rise

We tend to be broken, forgotten, lost and drifted.

The feeling of loneliness can prevail even in the depth of love.

How to be sure not to make the same mistakes again?

How to know we are not going to fall off from the surface of the Earth?

Our tradition is the knowledge, there is always downer and downer.

Yet, we are still here, all of us – in this or that form.

We are looking for the flames in our everydays, believing that’s the most important, we all want to be the torchbearers in our lives.

Still, time to time we feel there is no hope, we are hurting and in all that agony and pain it’s hard to see things through.

When everything is gone, when nothing remains, just the ashes, what’s the good of it?

Sparks.

So, don’t waste time anymore, just see the real importance, your chance to be reborn and be more complete each and every time.

Because you can grow, you can evolve, you can be the master of your life.

 

Joshua Dragon

God Believes in You

You will succeed, my daughter

You will succeed, my son

You will accomplish greatness

Because I know who you are

Deep inside

You are the light

To shine on this world

To raise consciousness

To raise wholeheartedness

 

So, don’t have any doubts my daughter

So, don’t have any doubts my son

You will achieve all your dreams

You will live in beauty and prosperity

I have faith in you

You should believe, too

You are the one who matters

To make this world into whole

To re-create the future of love

And have an abundant life

For all

 

 

Joshua Dragon

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