It still hurts when I realize how far we are from each other with a friend who would be a real one.
You know, when you don’t even think of how great this what you have is, because you feel it is eternal and everything will be as it is.
And then it’s not.
Hard to find the point when the change starts to happen and then, all of a sudden, you know you are not there where you used to be. Not any more.
And it hurts, hurts a lot.
Where have the good days gone?
You never know. They are just gone.
And you feel the loneliness. The emptiness echoing.
And there is only God to talk.
God who has always been there waiting for you. And now, He is waiting for you to say a word. To say anything.
And there is nothing you can tell Him.
It happens you are empty. There is a void when you understand your real friend is just not that person whom you were thinking as a friend.
Still, God is there.
My friend has been silently waiting for me.
My friend, who has always been there for me. And it was me who became distant. The one who did not respond for His calling.
And still He is here for me.
God still wants to be my friend. Despite I abandoned Him. Despite how I thought we were good when we were not. Despite everything, God is still there.
God is still within.
What am I going to tell Him?
(from my upcoming book: God is Still Within)