Drifting

There is a black hole in me

Without singularity

Fragments of life

Say me goodbye

Unreliable memories

Drifting in space

Who could be

You

Wasted me

I can’t embrace

The dead

Any more

Where would you be

If I were still alive

For you

Where would you be

If I were still there

I cannot be

The scent of your garden

Is broken history

 
I’m lonely and lost

I have everything I don’t need

 

 

Joshua Dragon

(from the “Break-up Therapy”)

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Now, I am free (Separate togetherness)

I’ve walked on a long, cold, muddy road
I’ve thought light is in your hand you hold
But there was only shades of the night
I became empty, ran out of life

 
You were my temple, religion
You were hope and future illusion
But just lies and grand dellusions
You won freaking, rigged game of yours

 
Now I am empty
Now I am free
Now I can feel
eternity

 
I’m still on the cross, don’t get me wrong
I’m bleeding through all my bloody, deep holes
But I choose to be here, you see
I’m breaking the cycle of endless vanity

 
You can see the world as it goes
You can play your dreams in rabbit holes
You won’t be who you could be
If you don’t look farther than your pain

 
Now I am empty
Now I am free
Now I can feel
eternity

 
We are different galaxies
We have whole different needs
We say and claim different truths
We shall see beyond or lose

 
Now I am empty
Now I am free
Now I can feel
without you
eternity

 

 

Joshua Dragon

(from the “Break-up Therapy”)

You are a good person (Affirmation)

Always remember: you are a good person, who is capable for greatness. You are beloved by Heavenly Parent and you will be beloved the very same way by your family.

 

Accept yourself not because what you did or you think you should have done but because you are a one of a kind, unique, special being who can manifest the highest level of love through actions.

 

Say it loudly: “I am beloved. I am special, I am unique and I can manifest the highest level of love through my actions.”

 

Joshua Dragon

Friday Affirmation ​

Say this to yourself as a repetition: “I love myself for no reason. I am who I can be. I can achieve anything what I set my mind to do so.”

 

Let yourself hear your own voice saying these.

 

Say as you mean it, even if it is a challenge to accept it.

 

This is not a textbook, this is life experience.

 

You can re-create yourself for the better each day!

Joshua Dragon

Anyone to talk to is You, God

Anyone to talk to is You, God

 

All the deaf and selfish

and all the caring are asleep

leaving the ones in need

leaving me in need

of talking

sharing and

bonding

of feeling to be related

and connected

You are the only one, who is awake

 

You gave me life

and let me find my purpose

which has never been so easy

but I could wear off the selfishness

in a rough path

so I could be more like You

at least

try

 

Nobody has ever longed for me

as much as You, Father

not for Yourself, but for me

and that love is strange

still unusual

in this life

 

There is noone else at this vigil

You are the only one who listens

and hear me out

and I wish I could love You more

but this is all I can do

trying to grow

and be more mature

 

Anyone to talk to is You, God

there is noone else awake this time of the night

nor in my life

my heart is invisible for the world

I matter the most to You

I know

 

For some, I am like You

Father

guiding light

brother

through all the challenges

 

I can love You more, Father

as I’m evolving

this way

 

Anyone to talk to is You, God

 

 

Joshua Dragon

Monday Affirmation

Say this out loud to yourself: “I am me, I am worthy, and I am good to be loved.”

That is what matters the most: you are unique, one of a kind, nobody is like you and never will be: you have a special value in this world.
Whenever you choose to accept this, lasting happiness and joy will start to appear in yourself and later on manifested in other people around you.

​ 

Joshua Dragon

Spring

It is springtime and everyone loves spring. Young people, especially teenagers, long for some season like springtime. The love within them desires this season. Springtime brings a natural, instinctive longing for something untouchable. Unlike youth, however, older folks approach spring with a sense of responsibility. The elderly people who have raised children now have an empty nest and they have a different feeling in spring. Their children have married, left home and now have made homes of their own. This is the season for citizens to reminisce about their past accomplishments and about their families and children and recollect good memories. For them, spring is the time of recollection and re-evaluation of the past times of their lives.

 

This doesn’t necessarily apply only to human beings but to the animal kingdom as well. For instance, during this past winter in New York we had unprecedented heavy snow. Deer and other big animals and the birds sought shelter during winter, but now that spring has come they have a new hope and resurrected feeling. They enjoy this precious time of spring. Witness the flight of the birds; during the winter season they were gone, but now they are back, singing and looking for food. They have aspirations too.

 

Spring will be proud to say, “I have the capability of revitalizing all creation.” Spring will declare that we are given new life and refreshing elements in its season. During winter we can’t see leaves on the trees, but now new buds are emerging with new life. Everyone loves to see new buds. Plants, animals and man all have the same feeling. The migrating birds will find their way back north and enjoy the regenerating forces of spring. What kind of migrating birds do you think of? Robins, ducks, Canadian geese, swallows, swans. They never miss migration.

 

You urban people don’t understand birds. If you live in the country they sometimes make nests under your roof or on your porch. When the swallow is singing, it sounds to Westerners like an Oriental language, but to Orientals it sounds like they are speaking English! The swallow looks like he is wearing a tuxedo, and seeing the male and female singing together is very impressive. No single bird sings; they sing together. If a bird is alone then he sinus to invite or woo the opposite sex. Wherever birds sing together it seems like love is there, right? The same thing applies to mankind. An individual longs for someone else with whom to have a subject-object relationship of give and take.

  
Spring
Reverend Sun Myung Moon
April 16, 1978

Where is the direction

Where is the direction

I feel I’m lost

What is the way

I’ve forgotten

 

I was supposed to win

Every battle

Now I’m drifting

Through the time

 

Sometimes I wish

I knew

How to undo all

I’ve misdone

 

It’s not like that

I’m crying

I’m too stubborn

To admit

 

Where is my game

Playing

To know is all

I’ve ever wanted

 

I wonder if the flowers

Will dry out again

 

 

Joshua Dragon

I’ll be the master of love

I’ll be the master of love

When I turn this shit into fertilizer

As I own it

What I have never asked for

And re-create

Our life from its ruins

 

I’ve never blamed you

Though it’s not mutual

As nothing seems ever was

But it’s only the pain talking

 

Now I’m free

Because I choose to be

And I choose to be grateful

For no reason

Now I’m free

 

 

Joshua Dragon

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